Oasis placement

Well,its now Thursday 18th August as as of yet,I don't have a placment for my course with Oasis.I called up and left a message this morning,so I guess theres nothing more I can do except pray.I'm so flippin'stressed out lately,I've been geting ill.I've been getting constant headaches,I keep wantin' to throw up,my throats killin me,I'm not sleepin and I'm losin' weight.Emotionally I feel like a completely different person:I'm snappy,tearful,complete insecure about myself.Just getting out and facing the world is difficult for me at the minute,I just feel ugly and worthless.
Part of me wonders whether I've made the right decision in the first place.Lately,I've been regretting the decision not to go to a proper University and get the full student experience.Don't get me wrong, I've got absolutely no intention to go out and get lashed every night-that's part of the Uni experience I can do without.But the whole thing of living in halls,paying your own way,hanging out with people my own age and non-Christians again.I can't explain how much being stuck in a Christian 'bubble' does my head in.I mean its great,and you get a load of support,but sometimes you just wanna be 'normal' y'know?No expectations, no standards,just chilled-out friendship.Like if you tell someone that you're having problems,sometimes all you want is for them to listen.Not give you some spiel about how you need to trust God and pray.You already know that,but what you could really do with at time is someone you can talk to.I'm strugglin' to handle the responsibility thats on my shoulders right now,theres just too much pressure.I'm gonna ask Pete to get someon else to cover the final Sunday schools,I need a break man.I cant remember the last time I could just sit in church and not have to think about what needed to be done during it.
I've turned into such a whiny little brat,I hate it.I just wish this would all be over quickly.